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After a betrayal, you don’t want to know how to be happy again.
Happiness now equals a kind of anxiety that is so crippling and investigation-igniting, you avoid it yearning for it.
The times that I got cheated on where I did nothing but unconditionally love and give…
those instances hurt the most because they were nonsensical.
When I look back, I can see my part in most of the times that I’ve been cheated on in one way or another.
While you can provide a fertile environment for someone to feel a certain way and want to cheat, you can’t take credit for “making them do it.” The fact that they had the capacity to carry out that behavior (and not communicate how they felt or break up with you), is a capacity that existed long before you came into the picture.
It wasn’t because I wasn’t good enough or pretty enough, that I didn’t love him enough, was too clingy, didn’t give him space or whatever the excuses were.
When I asked him the next day if he had cheated on me, he said yes. At that moment, my entire world was turned upside down and destroyed. I felt so ashamed, unwanted, rejected and ugly, but I was paralyzed in the love I had for him and couldn’t imagine not being together.
HE finally broke up with ME because he couldn’t take the insanity any longer. As bad as that was, what felt like even more of a betrayal was when I dated another guy who flirted with other women – both in-person (which he would brag to me about) and online for everyone to see.
He did this while I was going through one of the worst times in my life.
It’s like two drunk drivers getting into an accident versus one drunk driver hitting a sober person who was obeying all the laws.
With every relationship I have and every new one that I make, I keep my experiences with betrayal close by.